@seeker70 I too have been depressed ever since I can remember, I think I was born depressed. I’ve had a few happy moments, but that’s about it.
I’ve been on anti depressants for quite a few years but I don’t think they are really helping me. No one understands that feeling of depression or they just chose to ignore not. I too am a senior, no motivation none whatsoever, no pleasure in doing anything, just existing.
So, I know exactly where you’re coming from. I wish there were more to life than this.