So sorry to hear of your struggles with depression, as have I struggled with it for probably 30 plus years since my mother died of the dreaded ALS. Suggestion - Consider looking into TMS (Transcranial magnetic stimulation - it's non-invasive) and some insurances cover it now that it's FDA-approved. For me, other than vigilant and regular medication (Cymbalta 60 mg) and talk therapy with a great therapist, you have to push yourself and get LOTS of physical exercise and nutrition. That helps me but it's still a struggle and I welcome any suggestions for eradicating depression. Also, get and do the exercises, I suggest, the book (suggested to me by a Psychiatrist) called Mind Over Mood (it's on Amazon) by Greenberger and Padesky. Best of luck to us all!