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I SEEM TO FEEL JUST LIKE YOU ABOUT DEPRESSION ! LIKE YOU SAID GETTING OLDER SEEMS TO JUST MAKE IT WORSE. LIKE YOU SAID WHEN I WAS YOUNGER IT WASN\'T SO BAD. I AM 67 I WAS ALWAYS SINGLE GAY AND ALONE ! THIS PAST JUNE I HAD TO HAVE A SHUNT PUT IN MY HEAD TO DRAIN OFF EXCESS FLUIDS. ( IT\'S CALLED HYDROSEPHLIS.) IT HAS BEEN WORSE WITH THAT GOING ON ! I HAVE BEEN ON MEDS SINCE 1986. MAYBE THEY WERE WORKING BACK THEN AND THOUGH I STILL TAKE THEM I DON\'T THINK THEY ARE WORKING. MY PCP DR. SUGGESTED I GET ANOTHER OPINION, MY APPOINTMENT IS IN MARCH. I CAN\'T WAIT ! ( NOTHING TO LOSE ! )
WITH THE WHOLE WORLD GOING TO HELL ON A ROCKET THAT JUST ADDS TO THE MISERY !
I ALSO FEEL OVERWHELMED WITH JUST ABOUT EVERYTHING.
WHEN DOES IT END ? I AM NOT AT ALL SUICIDAL I JUST WISH IT WOULD ALL GO AWAY ! I JUST WANT TO BE REASONABLY HAPPY.
IT\'S EVEN BORING WRITING THIS. I DON\'T KNOW WHAT ANYONE COULD WRITE BACK THAT WOULD HELP, NOTHING TO LOSE
I GUESS.
I JUST FEEL EMPTY & CONFUSED AND SAD, SO SAD !
I AM NOT A BAD GUY AT ALL ! WHEN I WAS WORKING, ( ALCOHOL AND DRUG COUNSELOR ) THINGS WERE BETTER . I AM RETIRED NOW. FOR THE LOVE OF GOD, I AM VERY THANKFUL I HAVE A DOG !
HOPE YOU FEEL BETTER SOON !
G
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G,. I'm 67, too. I understand that medications quit working in time. I'm glad that Wellbutrin still works for me after 12 years, but I recently started a second antidepressant, Remeron, because I was feeling more depressed for awhile. I think it's starting to help. If I were you, I'd be looking forward to the appointment in March. Remember that it can require trying a few meds for a few weeks each until you find the right one. I don't know about you, but patience isn't my strong suit.
I certainly understand the feeling of being overwhelmed. It's one of the hallmarks of depression. I hope a new medication helps with that. I've lived with that, along with hopelessness, worthlessness, pointlessness and sadness for more than 15 years.
I have a service dog who is always with me. Sometimes people ask me what his service is, and I usually feel like saying none of your business. But I just tell them he's a psychiatric service dog. Most of the time that ends the conversation, but sometimes a person will pursue. Usually when they do that, they themselves would love to have a dog, or a family member needs one for some issue. If a man my age starts a conversation, he usually is assuming I'm a Vietnam vet, which I'm not. I tend just to listen in that situation.
Having my dog with me all the time is important to me. We used to attend a church that denied access, which is their right under ADA regulations. We changed churches three years ago where she's welcome, and I've never heard a negative comment from anyone. People love her, and loved my previous dog who had a stroke or some other brain event and I had to have her put down. That was a really difficult time for me.
Do you find that your counseling career is a help in dealing with your own demons? I retired at 55, because of mental health issues and suicide attempts, from being a pastor, which had been my vocation since college. The feelings of loss are going still with me. Our lifelong vocation becomes part of our identity, doesn't it. Sometimes I feel weird being on the other side of the desk.
Know that you're not alone. We'll always be glad to hear from you.
Jim
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@donny67 You may want to turn your caps lock off. It seems you are angry and shouting at everyone. Sorry things are hard for you right now.