@mjp0512
I understand completely what you are trying to say and how you feel. I also can see and understand why your wife chose to fight to the very last end. We are all so different and it is impossible to predict of how we would behave in such a tough situation. I will be honest and say that I tried on several occasions in my life to imagine what I personally would do, but it is just not realistic to predict one's response - only person who is experiencing it in real time knows how they feel and why they feel that way and what they think is the best path forward. I also think that the same person would react differently at different times of one's lifetime and for different reasons too. There is no right time to give up or the right way to say goodbye - the right time is when we personally decide that the time is right. 😞 Lung cancer is very fast and efficient killer and with mets to the brain and eyes : (( her life would have been very painful and limiting and very short regardless, so she had to try and fight with all that she had.

On the bright side : )), I am so happy to hear that your appetite is good for the most part 😎 and that freezer is stashed : )). I can also see from other posts that your doctors are considering all kind of new approaches and that is GREAT !!! You are really in competent hands and that is a half battle won right there ; ) ! We can only take one step/day at the time when nonsense like this is thrown on our path and I hope that today is tolerable and that bananas are tasting good *hugsssss

Sending vibes galore and thinking of you 🌺