I understand what you are going through, as I share your mental health issues, along with a boatload of other health issues. I see 13 different specialists, so I understand your frustration, as it feels like I live in doctor’s offices. Unfortunately, I don’t have a choice in keeping the appointments, as my balancing act in keeping my health on an even keel is precarious, and that doesn’t even count all the testing that each doctor requires. I’m so sorry that you have been so sick. It’s awful when a doctor refuses to listen to you, and I have fired a few because of that issue. You always have to stand your ground - if your gut tells you that something doesn’t seem right, insist they explain clearly why they want to do something, and refuse it if it makes the hairs stand up on your neck. Doctors are intelligent, but they aren’t infallible. Sometimes you have to remind them of that. I’ve learned that the hard way. The most important thing I have found, is that you need to have one doctor who acts as your gatekeeper - the keeper of all your medical records and medications, and who communicates with your other doctors ( usually through reports from them). This doctor will help prevent many issues from happening, and doesn’t necessarily need to be your primary physician. I’m very fortunate to have most of my doctors close by - I can’t imagine having to travel as far as you do. It must be awful. Please hang in there and stay in touch with us. The support this group provides is important.