Thank you @kathleenkin - I won't give up. I'm wired to fight this battle as it sounds like you are too! I admire your faith and resiliency with the physical effects and the unknown future. It must bring a sense of closure knowing your son and his wife know your wishes so now you can just live the day at hand. I agree, the hardest part is leaving those we love behind. I will try to find another time to talk with my husband. Right now, we're blessed. Although I have several side effects, they dont hamper my everyday living with a few adjustments and I "look" 😉 pretty healthy. Maybe he's just not ready for these conversations. Sometimes, I feel like I'm not either. But I'll continue to be open and honest. Maybe I need to just write it out and save it to get it off my chest. I SO appreciate your prayers for peace and joy without fear. My next CT scans are in Jan. and I know I tend to get a little anxious thinking life could change again on a dime. BUT, we've got today! I never want to trade the possibility of a wonderful day for worries about another!! Thank you so much and best wishes to you as well. We'll keep fighting the good fight!!