@jazzjen Welcome to MayoClinicConnect. These past few months must have been so difficult for you. Do you have family? How has all this affected them? Why do you feel that the cancer is not gone? Is there too much “down in the dumps feeling” around the house? I don’t have cancer (I have an autoimmune disease), but as a nurse, I specialized in care of cancer patients. As nurses, we became so tuned into our patients and their moods. Some were such an inspiration for all of us! Even if they did or didn’t know what their outcome would be, they looked forward and lived each day at a time. Many of them I still remember.
Have you thought about talking with a therapist? Someone who would just listen? Feeling anxious about the future is not wrong, it just is. We’re here to listen. Will you keep in touch with us? We care