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Talking Frankly about Living with Advanced Cancer
Cancer | Last Active: Jun 18, 2023 | Replies (508)Comment receiving replies
Hello @ventibug
Hope your Samsung & you have a long lastning & satisfying relationship, ahead of you. I am an IPhone & IPad user & it is too late to start learning how to use an android gadget. I have a computer but don’t remember where I have parked it. My memory is a bit of mess and I have accepted my condition with difficulty, due to 23 years of chemo, cancer & other treatments. I am always such a positive and happy person but now I feel that I am lost in the deepest whole of depression that can be found on earth. I feel that my husband is very tired of being this great strenght, loving partner of mine. It is not easy with ups and downs in my different treatments, side effects and various reasons to be hospitalised, more often recently. Between us I am tired of being alive but sitting in this waiting rom before the final D”eath”day. I have being diagnosed 4 time with stage 4 cancer. I don’t know if it was thanks to my Sunny personality or my wonderful oncologists that I have survived this far. But as said before, it has become tiring just waiting. On the bright side, I Said hello to my new grandchild, a little boy for almost two weeks ago. Didn’t even believe to be able to meet my first grandchild, a very bright and beautiful girl who would be 4 years old quite soon. So you see life is full of surprisens even when we found ourselves at the bortom of darkest whole in the world. My aim is to find a comfortable and pleasant mind zone for my beloved husband, where he can relax and gather his strenght back.
I am so happy that you are a believer, your trust in God Will help you through this ordeal. Nobody understands your situation better than you, but please find a place in your mind that you can the reasons for being lucky. Mine are that I have a wonderful tired husband, a handsome son, two wonderful grandchildren, and still with my spread stage 4 cancer for the past 3,5 years, I have been enjoying most of my days. If I die now, you must know that while feeling the blue, I am the luckiest woman alive.
Take care beloved ventibug❣️
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@ventibug You sound like a wonderful person, so articulate and insightful. Don't know about the Apple devices though! I wish there was a magic wand to lift you up from the dark hole of depression but it seems that venting here is a good release for these cancer-related feelings.
I can identify with your feelings. I want to send you all my love from a storm battered, very wet New Zealand. And congratulations on your new grandson.
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Dear Saltis, Your descriptions of your experiences and emotions are wonderful. Twenty three years is a long time. You give me hope that I may outlive my 18 month prognosis. I've wanted a 50th wedding anniversary for 43 years this week. We will see what God has in mind. Bless you in welcoming that new grandson. Pictures were taken, right?
I, too, am blessed to have a husband who takes excellent care of me. This is a new role for him in this last 6 month and he has really stepped up. I am so grateful. I can't imagine how tired he my become and it is hard to be on the receiving end of nurture all the time. Yet I am so grateful.
You mention feeling foggy. I can tell a difference already so I think you do very well. Thank you for posting. I feel understood when i can empathize with you. Ventibug