I have been battling metastatic breast Cancer now for almost 7 years. I never thought I would live this long. I'm at the point where I'm afraid I will run out of money before I die. I had a terrible time this summer with pain due to a fractured vertabra. I had to hire full time (40 HR a week) help to do most everything for me. I didn't bother to see if I could afford it because I just simply needed it not to mention a dog sitter for my two dogs while I spent 23 days in the hospital. Things are finally getting better--much less pain after spine lapindectomy and radiation. More radiation for brain tumors and a tumor in my jaw. I've told my caregiver I need her only 20 hrs a week now which didn't go over well. I'd like to have her more but I just can't make ends meet. I've told everyone not to expect much for Christmas. My problem is when all this was going on I made my peace with death and was ready to go. I'm still ready. I don't have much quality of life, my money is running out and I'm afraid what will happen next year when I turn 65 and have to go on Medicare. I have good insurance now through my last employer but my understanding is Medicare
has lots of co pays for everything. Then there's that donut hole which I'm sure to hit fairly quickly with these out of the world cancer meds. I know I have the option of throwing in the towel and saying no more treatment but my cancer is actually fairly indolent most of the time and even if I just get palliative care I could live indefinitely. I could have said no to back surgery but I would have ended up paralyzed fairly quickly so I'm glad I did it. The brain lesions might or might not have lead to my death but I didn't want to end up severely cognitively impaired in my last time with my family. I am on blood thinners because I had a couple of DVTs last summer as well as a PE. I could stop taking those and see what happens