Hello @testlady

I see that this is your first post on Mayo Connect. Welcome and thank you for so honestly describing your feelings. Your phrase, "the fog of inevitability," so aptly describes what so many of us feel at one time or another. Especially after a test finds a new source of cancer, and we find ourselves facing another surgery or another round of treatment.

Please continue to share your journey with us as you feel comfortable doing so. We would like to get to know you better, and also may I offer my congratulations on your "six years and counting."

Teresa