@sabwal I have two questions for you. Is it for your mother's sake or yours? Would you want to know? We don't want to be responsible for causing grief in others, but it is unavoidable when they love us. Often, we find out too late that loved ones were faced with challenges they tried to handle on their own. The guilt of not being there for them can be challenging, especially compounded with grief. I wish you well on your journey and hope you are the exception to the rule.