@judimahoney Thank you for your support! I have been acknowledged by you more than I can count! I just know that the sadness is horrible! I feel like I am numb! Trying to carry on is the only way I can honor them both! I cry hearing our song! When I see his pictures around our home! I will not ever hide them away! I had chosen at my spouses celebration of life to share the man I knew! The first time I saw him, the first time he kissed me, the first time he took me skating and he was really great at it! The first time he gave me flowers which were always roses! He kept me and our family safe and we all loved him! But what really sticks out is when he and I were married! He was so handsome ! I shared a lot more and I did without crying! He was the sweetest man and always loved me and I will always call him “the love of my life”! I have chosen to try to be positive and know that he no longer is suffering! My brother was wonderful ! I was the oldest and I remember when he was placed in my arms by my Mom! I could not believe she let a 7 yo little girl hold her precious first boy! It makes me smile just writing it! Again thank you! You don’t know how it lifted me by sharing a little of my sweetheart! 🫂💕