@sillyblone
My heart goes out to you and I’m sending you my heartfelt condolences. Sometimes I wonder how much we can take but somehow we deal with it ( in our own way). Obviously, we really have no other choice but to somehow deal with it. If I can ask, what disease took 3 special people from you? My husband had some medical problems but the biggest issue was his dementia which of course progressed to advanced dementia. Again, sending hugs, healing thoughts, and prayers your way.