Ruth, Barb: You both are so supportive, I can tell. I don't share the belief that a higher power (i.e. God) will interfere with our lives but rather let happen what can and will happen. Moving on, so today I went with a new refreshed attitude to see my wife to give her her lunch ( it's minced) and within about 40-45 minutes I had to leave. I could not stay any longer. First, my wife was again not allowing me to feed her. (She needs to be fed but can drink on her own). Then her table mate who should not be at the same table, eats like an animal, makes sounds like an animal and she grabs food with bare hands, shoves it in her mouth except for what falls all over the place. Then her other other table mate, an Italian lady sobs, cries, whines, screams, upsets the table etc. etc. On top of that my wife is up/down many, many times, either attempting to leave the dining room or just taking a few steps, then sitting back down again, and on and on it goes. The only stable person is a man, former Parson who seems to enjoy watching the scenes unfold. He and I seem to connect through eye contact. So with food flying everywhere, screaming, yelling, on 2 sides of the table, plus one trying to leave, I had had enough. I am civilized-this is not rational behavior (I know that) but my being cannot sit there and say everything is all right, because it isn't! I left in a terrible state, upset, angry, vowing never to come back to give lunch to my wife again, and I won't. I need my sanity. Judge me if you will and I won't blame you. I think certain people are better at caregiving under these circumstances. The PSW's here are doing the best they can. I cannot match their commitment, their dedication, and the care they constantly deliver to patients.