@craigj1957 I'm so sorry you are having such a terrible time . My husband tried Chinese food and it helped him. He was lucky that he qualified for a clinical trial, his treatments were reduced, still it's a hard road to recovery. It's easy to get depressed when you don't feel anymore like you used to but maybe think that the worst is over. Another person on here suggested taking it a week at a time,do you feel even a little bit better this week than last week. It will get better.