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My next steps with my Adenocarcinoma 1.1 lung tumor
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How do all you people stay in such control? I am a mess. I'm either crying, worried about what if, or crying. I have a wonderful daughter, who has been with me every step of the way so far, but it is not up to her to soothe my fears 24/7. I do have a husband, but he cares nothing about me or the disease. The only mention we had about my diagnosis is "If I die, somebody better give him his driver's license back. He is 77, and his neurologist recommended that the state take it. So, most days I am on my own, alone with all these scary thoughts. I really don't have a point to this post; I guess I'm just scared with nowhere to go.
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@blue717
For me, the truth is that I do go have a cry on my own when I'm really down. There is no shame in crying. I have a husband who supports me, but right now he is grieving the loss of his dad. My daughter is supportive as well, but she lives over 2 hrs (of a drive) away. She also has a 10yrs old son who is on the scale of a 2 (out of 3 autism spectrum). She is doing everything she can, (even a therapist coming every other week), but he is becoming very challenging. I don't want to burden her too much with my stuff. So I understand how cancer can feel daunting. I have found some great support here, so stay with us! Are there any sort of support groups that you could attend in your area; or even participate in zoom gatherings while you wait for your "next steps"? If not, talk to us, we can help bc we have been thru similar situations and especially understand and your feelings. I have said this a million times on this forum, but I try to live with gratitude as much as I can. I am grateful for my awesome medical team and the amazing cancer hospital with Dr's trained in the latest techniques. I'm so grateful for summer with trees so green with new growth. You get the idea. I find it helpful to write down a list of what I am grateful for. It's a great reminder for me when I start to feel down.
There is a discussion in this group called "What brought you joy today". It's great to read and perhaps you will find something in there that you can connect with. Deep breaths, you've got this!
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Hello @blue717
I’m sorry you are going through this. It is scary, frightening and your feelings are completely understandable. When I found out I had lung cancer I too was either crying, thinking, … then out of no where emotions would flood over me and the tears just flowed all over again. It’s only natural to feel this way.
I’m sorry your husband is not the support you need right now, I’m hoping he will be soon. I’m happy you have your daughter.
What helped me was reminding myself that they caught it early, that I have a great team… if I had a “what if” come to mind…. I answered it with “I’ll cross that bridge when and even if I have too”… I took lots of deep breaths until what I said sunk in.
Like you, I had stage 1 adenocarcinoma. Stage 1 is considered curable.
Hugs Blue, you do have a place to go when you are scared, it’s right here at mayo. 🤗
Daisy