@royanthony I struggled with that when I did use porn a long time ago. Now I just concentrate on what my wife and I had prior to her injuries and lack of lubrication. I actually enjoy oral also on her even and it is a great turn on when I see her get off. but now even that is not something she likes anymore. so it's my memories that help me masturbate and I figured if I'm in my mind doing it with my wife how can I be doing anything against what God gave us as married couple. Just my take on it