@margaretallen -- Hang in there. You are not alone. Things I have and have tried that have helped: deep breathing, meditation, compression blankets, exercise. We have two cats that make us laugh and keep us sane. I've tried to identify all the stressors in my life that I don't need and don't have to put up with and eliminate them. Those I have to put up with and can't control I try not to think about. Music is hugely important. Put on music you like and try to play along on a piano or guitar, or beat out its rhythm on your knees, or dance with a partner or just with yourself. Sing. Paint. I know you won't want to, because I've been there, but if you take that first step it can accelerate and develop a momentum of its own.