Hi Randy!
I'm so happy to read that you're back, and that things have gotten a little better and clearer now.
Sorry for taking a few days to answer your post — my plate has been quite full these past ten days, and I felt I needed to put my own mask on first, taking some days off.
I understand very well what you mean about hiding your feelings becoming second nature — I went through that too. Thankfully, I had the support of my neuropsychologist, with whom I could speak openly and without restraint about how my heart felt at the time, so as not to frighten my husband, my parents, or close friends.
Have you had the chance to speak with your doctor? How is your seizure pattern going?
Sending lots of good vibes 🙌
Chris