@jimbo12 You know, it's OK to feel sorry for yourself. Everyone in the world except one very unlucky person can point to someone else who's worse off, but that doesn't mean what you're experiencing doesn't matter.

Have geriatric medicine specialists made any suggestions? They can't make you 65 again, but perhaps they can find ways to help you enjoy the body and abilities that you have now. And 89 isn't too old for therapy or support groups, either.

Step one is considering that your life is still important and has value, regardless of your age, health, and physical abilities. Not going all blessing the sunrise and all that, but just saying "You know, maybe there is some honest joy there somewhere, if I just give it a chance."

Best of luck (and again, it's OK to feel down sometimes too.)

@jimbo12

I had the same experience with terribly painful headaches, muscles, and bones plus severe hot and cold sweating 24 hours/day. In my case it was clearly the Lupron caused low testosterone that after 15 months has only recovered to 125. My side effects did not start to subside until after 14 months. Next week I get PSA and testosterone rechecked but to date my PSA has been less than 0.03. There is growing research studies that indicate that ADT treatment only helps a small percentage of men but almost everyone has to suffer the side effects.