Hello Jim and all others. This is Peach. The most help of all was and is to speak to a person who really, really cares and wants to near your woes. To try to understand the why? Why me? What for? To help the abuser find their relief? And why bring in the rest of the family to do the same to me? It has taken my entire life trying to understand this. The person who is doing this must, must do as much damage as possible and wants me out of their life but I think most importantly wants me and all that reminds anyone the fact that I had and did actually exist. In a way I do understand this and feel sorry that this person suffered through this. This was my mother. Believe it or not I have forgiven her and that she had also suffered through this. This took many years to do and it is now a good feeling of understanding. The last part of my journey is the rest of the family. Why did they and still do continue to treat me as a person to hate? They have been so indoctrinated by our mother so as to have her love which is needed by everyone. But why does this continue? I am still alone in this world without family. I have learned to accept and love myself and others. I do not think my siblings (three sisters) can ever change their ways so I must continue on in life alone. I love myself and God. Thank you for listening. Peach