@parus- Hello. One thing that I find when memories attack me is to remember that they are just that, memories. They happened "ago". And it has been shown that our memories do not give us an accurate account "today." I am not saying that my memory is inaccurate in it's facts, but certainly time and other experiences have colored them.
I don't blame you for phasing out your friendship. One thing about friendships, we have to listen and understand. If that doesn't happen there's no reason to be friends. That must have been a sad day when you said good by to her in your heart, and maddening too!
lol- You are making perfect sense. PTSD is not a friend. How is your health and rest?