Your story is almost exactly the same as mine. I often feel like I’m living in limbo - and moving to 6 month surveillance was very difficult. Post treatment side effects are constant reminders and scanxiety has never gone away. Meditation and support groups are not my thing, but 1:1 conversations with social workers have been helpful. I try to eat healthy and I go to the gym once a week, but I also don’t deny myself foods that bring joy or lazy mornings when needed. With an aggressive cancer diagnosis, I wonder how much control one really has over its cell growth. After a good (negative) scan I feel free for a while, planning time with family and friends (my joy) until the cycle begins again. Others share that daily supplements and exercise are beneficial. Maybe other survivors will make suggestions that resonate with you. I find that the psychological effects of cancer in the post treatment stage are as ignored by the oncological community as the long term side effects. “Live your life” is easier said than done and we have to figure it out in our own. This Mayo community has been helpful in its support and in not feeling so alone as a survivor who struggles.