Ginger, yes it did remind me of my accomplishments but it also reminded me of the abuse. which is par for the course for anyone who has PTSD. But that's ok. It is a part of my life, but more so a part of my PAST. I can't change what has happen even a second ago but I can change how I react to it. The pain is no longer debilitating. Yes it's still there but I have learned to dismiss it by ask myself' Is there anything I can do to change what happen in my past?" The answer is clearly no. so ok if I can't change it then I have no other choice but to let it go and learn from it. How can I protect myself from it ever happening again. How can I put myself first, how can I take care of myself physically and mentally. How can I use my past to help others. Thank you for you sweet reply. God bless