Oh peach, Your post touched me deeply. I wish Could open up more. PTSD! Took so much from me. Maybe I could have made something of myself. My bother had it also but he was able to learn, get his Masters and just before he died he was going for his Doctorate. I always had a lot of interests but to scared to due anything about it because I failed at everything I did. Mentally I could not go through another failure. Discussing my mother, father, brother it feels like I'm betraying a trust. Crazy? Well having a cry, so ill close now