@parus Can you find something to focus on during/just after treatment? Do self-talk that lets you know you have chosen this treatment to help yourself get better/healthier? Reward yourself, congratulate yourself for having the strength [physically, mentally, emotionally] to go through this. Because you are strong!
Ginger

This is a tough one, @parus. The "fallout afterward" as you put it can be difficult. How many treatments are required?

@parus- There really is no way to get around the compromising positions women have to endure with certain tests or treatments. I don't envy you this and it's difficult to imagine that such positions are "a blessing." I'm wondering if you are lying down or sitting up during treatments. And the reason that I'm wondering is that is, if you are sitting up you could read, listen to music, anything to help keep you mind on something else, once you are all settled. Having cancer will definitely wake PTSD up and let it play for a while, but after your cancer has been treated you can do all the things that you have done in the past to make it go back in it's closet.
Are you reacting ok with any side effects?

I have been absent dur to health issues. I hope you were able to continue with the BCG treatments. I am so very sorry that you have had to go through this.