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Oh Gosh! I thought I was the only person that felt at ease and preferred to animals and nature over people. I grew up in a small rural town where they were no children to play with. I can't recall if I was lonely or not - there was PTSD over growing up in that household so I learned never to trust people. Here I am - 72 years old and all I enjoy doing is sitting in my recliner and watching tv -- all day long -= even if the movies are repeats. I have no friends and haven't had any for years -- but I honestly don't miss having them. I prefer my life even though it's blah, blah, blah. Is there something terrible wrong with me? I'm totally uncomfortable in social situations, which is practically non-existent. A total recluse -- but what must sound strange is that I prefer it to being in a group of people. Am I a weirdo??
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@1mountaingirl86- I'm glad that you have written back. I think that all of us feel that no one has feelings like we do. It's just the opposite. And part of PTSD is curling into ourselves. Hiding from the pain that dumped on us. When I was in the worst of PTSD I did just what you did, watching a lot of movies. I tried extremely hard to hide the pain that I was feeling, the rejection and also the amount of lung cancers that I had had. I felt alone, although I'm married to a wonderful, caring man. I isolated myself. But there came a time when I was sick of myself and knew that if I was unhappy and in self isolation than I needed to face my "demons". All I can say, honestly is that it is a process. And it's very very hard. You mentioned in a previous post that you took risks. May I ask what they are?
I don't think that there is anything weird or terribly wrong with you at all, not at all. I do think though that even if you prefer being alone all the time that it is also not the most ideal way to handle your pain. And I think that is what you are asking here.
I am so so sorry that were both physically and emotionally abused. For so so many years I didn't think that I was worth much. I was literally paralyzed into not doing well as that was what I was taught. I can't imagine the pain and feelings of being physically abused at a very young age but I was date raped at 19. Where do you want to go from here?
Here's another group that you might want to look at: https://connect.mayoclinic.org/discussion/inability-to-live-a-normal-life/
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@1mountaingirl86 Hello-I want you to know I don’t think you’re weird. You are different from me, but that doesn’t make you weird. You mentioned that you were uncomfortable in social situations. Maybe that’s something you want to figure out. But you certainly don’t have to.
Have a happy day watching the tube!!
Karen