@dianaml
Greetings:
I feel the same as you, sadly feeling guilty that I don't like my husband anymore and he's challenging to love since there is no emotion, no conversation, no touch at all and no empathy. It's all about him 24/7.
Yes, I would love to leave but cannot leave this innocent puppy who didn't sign up for this. So, I leave in my mind and enjoy imagining all the things I'd do, all the places I'd go, and try to remember how much I loved him when times were good. That has to sustain me for now.
All the best to you. 🌺
🌋 this is my volcano exploding on a bad day.