@tresemae
What exactly are you frightened of?
Addiction? Dependence?
Side effects?
I have taken benzodiazepines for over 30 years and I am certainly dependent on them although I do frequently go down on the dose without any problems and I have not increased the dose in 20 years.
I may have some cognitive issues (short term memory loss) but that could also be from my age and the large amount of other substances that I have ingested over the years, including 50 years of smoking cigarettes.
I would say that they have saved my life. I too have severe anxiety, also inherited, and also can’t sleep due to the anxiety and chronic pain.
Take it one step at a time. Ask to be prescribed just 5 pills. That way you can see what happens and not be in any danger.
Let me know how it goes.