@parus Receiving your post an hour ago and still staring at it, trying to answer in my head first and won't come out. I was brought up to sweep everything under the carpet and that's what I am trying to do. Yes, I have PTSD that's all I can say right now. I've never talked about it except to tell the Doctor's I have it and that's as far as it went. They never told me anything about it. A lot came together after reading your post! PTSD has been the cause of most of my mental illness. It has played a large part anyway. I dream of screaming for help and no one is hearing me or the words aren't coming out. I will pick up where I left off later when it's clear in my head..
Lorraine