My first husband died over thirty years ago, and I can still feel the grief if I pause and think about it. And sometimes it wells up unexpectedly. The first year out was excruciatingly difficult. And for some years after that I often felt actively grief-stricken while also moving on. A grief group helped me, as did talking to other widows who seemed to appear out of nowhere to take me to lunch. Friends and therapy helped, as did getting two cats, and of course my very young daughter who was totally grief-stricken and needed care. But often I felt like I was sleep walking--couldn't eat or sleep. I also consulted my PCP who was a great person and very helpful. I did many rituals (my husband and I were different religions) some of which were just personal. I still give charity in his memory, and talk about him. I'm glad you are getting family support. Is there anything else you'd like to try that might help?