Heart stuff -echo etc. No one knows other than the words I share here. My problems are not their's and I do not ever want them feeling they owe me for any thing. I never knew I had depression or so many dark things from my past. They have their own lives and I do not want to be a burden in any way. Parents fail children. Children do NOT fail parents.
@peach414144 Surprised I have made it this far and stress can kill even if slowly. When my own mother was sick and needy I wanted to go help her. She had disowned me which was her way of showing disapproval. After all of her abuse and blaming me she did ask to see me. I was elated! I went to see her in a retirement home only to have my middle sister show up in a full-blown rage and drove me a way. Any time I would go to visit her that sister would pitch a fit. People do what works for them. Still, I wanted to be their for my mom. I did attend her funeral where the one sister had become the person she always hated.
After all of the abuse I still wanted to be there for my mom.
Enough of the maudlin mush again.