Well, my appointment was just canceled as the doc could not make it in...Now I can spaz all weekend until Monday afternoon. I am required to give 24 hour notice so they can fill my time slot. Not a happy camper as I wanted to get it over with and ask why my ankles are swelling more...a plot to destroy old, worthless people that are nothing more than a burden on society. I would much rather be working and also would like for my heart to quit pounding so hard. There was a time I did learn to trust and was badly abused asking for help. Not into self pity here just terribly frustrated and trying to get a lid on my anger. Thing calm thoughts. Interstate traffic is terrible as to work on the road for widening to 4 lanes and who cares about this...semi's shifting gears, no need to try music as would have to turn volume so loud to drown out noise of interstate. Pain is through the roof and it is my own fault for allowing something so seemingly insignificant upset me this much!!!! Noise everywhere. Want it to stop. At least have a little focus. Work on a watercolor with the roaring of traffic. Trapped here...don't dare leave and go any where in this kind of shape. It is all in my head...