I also had much anxiety before my surgery, really for most of the year prior to my surgery. Anxiety is part of the process seems like. For me things looked better coming out of the surgery than they looked going in. I was undetectable at 3 months and am optimistic that I will be undetectable at 6 months. All I can do is focus on one step at a time, let tomorrow take care of itself. Wishing you the best!