@gagathemom
My perspective on "you've got this" is that no, but God has got this.

If you will be in Rochester for the transplant in July, I may see you there. I start my allo SCT next week with zero day being July 8th. I am actually looking forward to getting on with this as I really want to recover to spend more time with my amazing husband (we have been married just over a year; he has been with me since my doctor's call to go to the ER for testing and he even proposed just a couple months after that), my extended family, and my church family. So far my journey has been very good (quite a few small bumps, but no terrible things like yours). I will pray that the rest of your journey is easier. I hope that we meet at Mayo (we plan to stay at Gift of Life House) and I would be happy to let you vent in person any time when we are out there or online - whatever works.

Take care and know you are not alone in this journey.
Lorie