Ah Laurie.... it's bad enough not being able to do the "general" things such as cooking, keeping in touch with relatives,driving etc., as we age and have illness (I feel so useless)... but for me, who cannot draw a dog or play a piano or sing etc., it must be terribly hard to not be able to continue things like being an artist, pianist, etc.... things people have achieved and are almost "part of them." Has anyone written a short book about being prepared for this new life of illness and in my case, aging? Well I think you are allowed to talk about how sad it is to not be able to do the things you used to but also to discuss the illnesses and health issues you have gone through.... we all know what its like to "just" have a bad cold or break an arm type thing but you have overcome vry serious things and it must have taken all your inner strength to just get through it all... bless you. 💙🌺💙