@faithwalker Renee, your writing cuts me like a knife. You write too well. I can't bare how you describe your life, as it is mine, and all of us here. I have this deep forgiveness inside of me, as people that don't live this, cannot understand it. If they are inappropriate and their responses to me don't quite "cut it," I am happy for them. It means they are well, and for that, I am greatful. No one should understand this, ever. LoriRenee1