Dear Precious Jim, thanks for sharing this. I am so sorry to hear of your horrible reaction to Lyrica!! It doesn't comfort me to hear the doctors say that some serious reactions to medications are rare. Did they say your adverse reaction to the Lyrica was because of another drug you were already taking?

It is very common for someone who has had a failed suicide attempt to think the exact same thing you did when you woke up. I'm so sorry for what you've gone through and the battle you fight each day.

Jim, do you have a "no harm" contract in place? I'm sure you know what that is yes? I hope you do and that you will honor it.

Jim, I am not a licensed therapist nor authority on the your situation. I can only share what I've learned working in the field of mental health and what my own experience has been.

I know you already know that evidence indicates that brain biochemistry is a significant factor in depressive disorders. I interpret this as being your mental health issues that you struggle with, are not your fault. My prayer is that you would no longer blame yourself for your situation.

I wish you God's comfort and peace through Christ, that I experience in my daily mental, spiritual and physical battles. It is His incomprehendabl love that carries me through the many fires we humans walk through while on this earth. You'll be in my prayers. You are a blessing to all of us here on Connect! You really are!!!

You have had victory over many of the battles you've fought and that alone is an inspiration! Deeply caring and warmest regards, Sunnyflower