@jimhd @bustrbrwn22
Life, for people in pain, constant, relentless pain, is an endless no-win struggle. Having been there once in my life only, I can nevertheless remember the sense I had of feeling I had no options, nowhere to turn for relief from my emotional pain and depression, it dogged me every day, daytime and nighttime. The only escape I got was my 12-14 hours of sleep each night. It's strange, normally I would feel like I wanted to continue, wanted to make it to the next day. But then I had a few nights where I was not so sure (but, I never actually acted, somewhat because I wasn't sure how to procure a gun, thinking that was the way to do it). I do not envy someone in that mode. But to you two in particular I would say, simply, remember you have friends here who want to see you on that next day, want to know your struggles as much as you can reveal. I remember the one thing that kept me from the brink when I was the closest was thinking about how I would not get to see my little sister again, her sweet face. That pulled me back I think.

I am not presuming at all that I can say anything to help someone who is on the brink. I nevertheless do care. Hank