I am finishing by 33rd radiation treatment on Friday. I am really, really burned as I have very fair skin. This was expected. Right now, they are doing a boost....4 more to go. I, too, am very scared that the cancer will return. I do have excellent doctors who have assured me that these burns, fatigue, night sweats, and pain will go away eventually....but, they hurt all the time so it is hard to think ahead. I am scaly, too...this morning, blood all over my cotton shirt...so I went around the house with no shirt for about an hour. I think the hardest part is not doing the activities that I am use to doing, so I do not see my friends. I read to exercise, but it is difficult with the pain. I do eat very healthy and always have. I get your pain and your fear....it is just "a lot" to hold in....but, I try to keep a smile. Hopefully, we will be "good" soon. God Bless.....