@tom1970 Dear Tom, I have no medical training and know of no way to help you, but I read your post and just want to express my sympathy with all you have had to go through and send you support for being in such a s**t situation. I have Bipolar Disoder and ALS, but fortunately have an excellent support team. I don't want this to sound as if I am insensitive or some kind of nutter, but it is important for me to focus on one thing a day which makes me appreciate the world outside illness. It is early winter here in Australia, the days are crisp and chilly and the trees have lost most of their leaves. I am writing this at 9.30am, and looking forward to a hot cup of coffee before I start to deal with my issues. I know you are in a terrible situation, but try not to let illnesses define your life. "You" are still there inside everything, try to value and be kind to "You". Sending you warm wshes, @ellu