@ocdogmom
This. Just what you said! The loneliness of decision-making, from the large ones (financial etc) to the small ones “What’s for dinner tonight?”). It does get tedious, frustrating and very very sad. It’s been gradual with me…at first just double checking to see if bills were paid, then paying a few that fell through the cracks, and now, I’m on a first name basis with our lawyer, our financial people etc. My husband recently opened a JCPenney credit card so he could get a discount on some clothes he purchased. The bill just came and it was for $2.98. Why not forget about the discount and just use one of the two main credit cards he carries? We did not need another card. I feel like the boy who put his finger in the dike on some days. Put out one small leak and another couple start up. And I know he is scared, frustrated etc. He ran his own company and now has to depend on me for things he would have handled easily. You are wise to journal and talk out loud! (I talk to the dogs, who are very excellent listeners!). I remember when my dad died of a heart attack, his doctor saying “don’t ever keep it all inside”. (And that is why I am here, every day, reading, sometimes commenting, but always lurking. Thank you all!