@tia8marie after I came out of ICU n went home after having ulnar nerve surgery and a blood transfusion bc of a severed artery I was actually afraid to drink...I took it like a sign that next time could be worse..so even tho it still crosses my mind I try my best to think it all the way through n keep myself busy. I wasn't an every day drinker but wen I would decide to do it I would binge drink n then it was getting to be like 3-4 times a week...every time would end in regret n this last time around I blacked out n woke up in the hospital. So yea to answer ya question with a short answer is just plain fear. God willing I don't drink again 🙏