@dannyandebbie Thank you for sharing, but now I won't sleep for thinking about your(s) sufferings. I love people, and I hate to hear of suffering. I hate to experience it also of course. No brainer. Oh my god that was a lot. I think of all of it, and I think I will live too long. I am trying not to be morbid of course. We cling to life, usually for our kids or our mates. But the number of times I have thought of popping off somehow, because of all the pain... well, I am still here and trying. And when I read stories like your(s) I feel guilty to have morbid thoughts. If you are sticking it out, then what about me. My best to you both.