@lukekee
Thank you for that word of encouragment! If you only knew how many people have insecurities which lead to resentment of those who try to have the life they are suppose to have. Personally, I want to be around people who are smarter than me and have experienced what I have not. Being a sponge, absorbing other lives, teaches me how to continue on. We can even learn from the negative. My husband (Cherokee Indian from Oklahoma, died in '08) told me, "You can learn something new from a wineo on the street, if you would just listen to him".
Now back to you and your pain...
I dont know what kind and where it is, but I have used two products that have been a life saver for me. Merry Hempster Vegan Hot Hemp Rub. Handmade in Portland. Organic, has hot peppers in it which relaxes the muscles, and hemp that relaxes the mind. It is in a big chapstick tube, so you dont have to touch it, just rub it on. For deeper than muscels, I use frankenscense and mhyrr, roll-on. I dont go anywhere without both. Lastly, I saw on the news a man in his 90' who has run every day of his life, even when he fell and broke his hip! Now, if he can do that (I'm not running, weak ankles and trick knees) then I can push through a lot of pain and hurts, right? I have an animal refuge and hungry people at my vegan food pantry relying on me. 🫠