I’m cautious about who I tell of suicidal thoughts. Yet I would strongly urge you to tell someone right away. Have you tried a suicide help-line? If you’re afraid someone might think you’re crazy, might try to get you “locked up” tell someone else. You are worth every effort you can make to stay alive. You are your best advocate. You may not know exactly how to get started but other trained human professionals do. Please don’t rely on AI for help. Algorithms are not designed to save your life. Is there a teacher, a parent of a friend, a trusted neighbor, an online support group for teens? Does Mayo Clinic have someone who can help or resources you can use? Don’t know what part of country you live but I might start with a tentative call to suicide help line. Please don’t wait any longer. I’m worried about you.