@gc4217 Reading, researching, and educating yourself is great. I just want to caution you to do those things from reputable resources. I speak from personal experience. You don't want to go down unnecessary rabbit holes that only create doubt and confusion from random sources. Treating cancer isn't easy for most of us. It can be horrible. If you weren't nervous, I would be concerned about your mental state. But, I recently lost a friend to rectal cancer that didn't fully commit to treatment. When she finally decided to do so, it was too late. Unfortunately as cancer patients, we have to make difficult decisions and choose very uncomfortable treatment. The hope is to come out the other side healthy and able to live the best life we possibly can. Make sense?