Days 9 and 10 – Tuesday and Wednesday
Final entry.

To my surprise, I was able to wake up overnight, feel the urge, and make it to the bathroom. Some leakage along the way, but manageable. I used a waterproof pad and towel just in case, and the overnight depends held up fine. During the day, I continued improving. I can feel when I need to go and make it to the bathroom, though I still leak a bit on the way. Ultimately, sitting or lying down, I have some amount of control, but standing or climbing stairs, there is no control. This is very normal and the fact that I can hold it at all is a good sign that I’ll be able to recover.

I’m having almost no pain at all. The only exception is that my perinium hurts if I try to sit on a firm or hard chair, or if I am too “sunk into” a couch or something. And sitting and leaning over to put shoes hurts that area a lot. So I put my shoes on standing up for now.

Back to work on Wednesday with added protection. I put a max shield inside a depends, and swapped out the shields. This worked well. I needed to swap every hour or so. When I waited longer, it was a mistake as things got too wet.

Haven’t started kegels yet because the muscle feels tired already from what it’s currently doing. I’m planning to start kegels once it strengthens a bit naturally. Life starts to feel like getting back to normal, though I'm still getting used to the depends and the shields.