@shellyk89 I feel for you. I am going to keep you in my prayers. I believe prayer is powerful. Prayer may or may not heal you physically but it definitely can heal you spiritually. I am praying that you will feel in your heart the presence of God and His peace that is beyond understanding.

“If the mountain seems too big today

then climb a hill instead

if the morning brings you sadness
it's ok to stay in bed

if the day ahead weighs heavy

and your plans feel like a curse

there's no shame in rearranging

don't make yourself feel worse

if a shower stings like needles

and a bath feels like you'll drown

if you haven't washed your hair for days

don't throw away your crown
a day is not a lifetime

a rest is not defeat

don't think of it as failure

just a quiet, kind retreat

it's ok to take a moment

from an anxious, fractured mind

the world will not stop turning

while you get realigned

the mountain will still be there

when you want to try again

you can climb it in your own time

just love yourself til then.”