@depressedbutnotdead Wow. Honestly, I’m not even sure how to express how much I needed to hear this especially with how the last year has been and how badly my symptoms have impacted my life. I’ve had a lot of trouble with my depression and anger lately and it ended up hurting one of the closest people in my life and now we’re taking a bit of space from each other for the time being after I lashed out on him when I was really just extremely exhausted with myself and my emotions I had been feeling for the longest which was one of the factors that led to me getting into therapy now. He’s always been kind, patient and supportive of me getting better and is just a great person in general. He makes me want to be better not only for myself but also for everyone else in my circle but especially including him as hes closest to me.

For past few months, emotionally and mentally, I haven’t been in the best place and I found myself in the worst depressive episode I’d ever experienced in my life. I turned to self harm at multiple times during that episode and I wasn’t the best person to those around me because of how angry I was that I was depressed. Ive just found myself trying to dig myself out of the hole I’ve found myself in and I’ve been okay for the past week now. Therapy helps and I’ve found that meditation and trying to better my sleep schedule is helpful as well, but it’s still been very hard for me mentally.

Hearing that you and your wife were able to mend things even after you both went through a hard time with your mental health has given me hope about me and my best friend. I’ve known him for nearly 5 years now and I don’t want to lose him anytime soon. Even though we’re in a tough patch now, I’ve updated him about how I’ve been getting better, hes still very supportive of me and says he’s proud of me. I miss him, but it’s best we don’t have much contact while I’m not doing my best at the moment as I’m more susceptible to hurting others. That part of your story really stuck out to me because I went through something similar with an ex of mines who wasn’t the best fit and was a massive red flag and left a bad impression on me. And then I met my best friend who I would say was the saving grace of getting me out of my own head when I couldn’t get myself out of it. I do hope that things go back to being better for us though in the long haul.

I really appreciate your patience to share your experiences and story with me and I can’t begin to describe how grateful I am that you did because it truly did feel like I was the only one in the world struggling with these feelings I have when in reality there are others out there who have experienced the same and persevered. So thank you again and I do hope that you continue to be better and happy and I hope the same lies for me in my future! < 3